Struggling To Find Ourselves

Music is the same way. There are VERY few Country Music stars today that sing what I call “Country”. The older ones have either retired or died and they are trying to change country music and I, personally, just don’t care for most of it.

I guess the same could be said of they way they “improve” products too. I’ve found that most of what are called “improvements” are really not making the product any better, in my opinion. When something works good to start with, why do they insist on trying to make it better? That’s progress, I’ve been told. Another instance where technology and they want to be better and have better stuff than anyone else has taken over, I guess.

She slipped into her Mother’s bedroom. She just stood and looked around for a few minutes. Everything was just as it had always been, with the exception of the thick layer of dust on everything. Her Mother’s bed, tucked in one corner of the room, with a beautiful handmade quilt…The dresser against one wall, on which sat her Mother’s jewelry box…..Beside the bed, a nightstand that held her Mother’s Bible, a picture of her and her Mother together, and the gold chain that her Mother had always worn.

The letter that I received from my friend, reminding me of the fact that we’ve been writing for 10 years has had me thinking lately.

One thing that I’ve thought about is how movies have changed over the last few years. It’s like there’s a gap in movies or something. Some of the stars from 10 or 15 years ago have realized they are getting older and aren’t doing as much. And nobody has really stepped up to take their place yet. Would you believe that, after analyzing the stars of recent action movies, I have only come up with two stars that I like that are actively making movies? And, of course, I like one of those more than the other.

What is so important about clothes I wonder? I realize that I’m not generally into the latest fad on anything, but clothes especially are a puzzle to me!! I wear jeans and a t-shirt most all the time…It seems there is even a big fad on women’s lingerie…I mean really, who really cares what you wear to go to sleep? Me, I wear a t-shirt and a comfortable pair of shorts…Can’t see the sense in wasting (IMO) money on fancy things to sleep in!!

These are just my opinion though.

Written 1-19-08…………Some of these past entries, and ones in the future are written by me, but typed in by my sister….

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I got a letter from a friend the other day. Didn’t really have a whole lot to say, but what this friend did have to say brought me to the realization that we’ve been writing for 10 years. It’s hard to believe!! We’ve both gone through ALOT in those 10 years, but the letters have still been there. Sometimes, they haven’t been real frequent, but they’ve been there. When I started writing to this friend, I was at a point in my life when I was bombarded with personal letters. And, thus, I was bombarded with personal letters to write. Most of them went to family friends that we’d made over the years of me growing up. I don’t have that many letters anymore. The family friend that we used to write are all older now and concentrate more on getting through the days. Some, of course, have died over the years. A couple have just stopped writing for some unknown reason. Now, I only have one or two that I still coorespond with via snail mail. I have to say that e-mails and notes left on my entries are nice, but nothing replaces going to the mailbox and having the delight and priviledge of receiving a letter that someone actually took the time to hand write!! Things like hand written letters have become a lost art in this aday and age of the internet and it’s sad that we’ve allowed the technology and business of the days to take away the simple joy of getting a letter in the mailbox. But, then again, hand written letters aren’t the only things we’ve allowed to get lost. Maybe writing more is another thing I need to start doing again? Since I enjoy getting personal letters so much!

She wandered around the shed a bit more, and than headed back up to the house to get settled in. She ate some chips and had an apple to eat. She hadn’t stopped by the store on the way up, so all she had was her traveling snacks…

Thinking of the traveling snacks reminded her of the time when she had gone looking at folly beach sc real estate, thinking that she might want to settle down there…Now that had been a fun trip! In the end, she had decided that the beach wasn’t her style. It was a beautiful area though!!

A friend I was talking to yesterday said that, sometimes, you just need to do something to take care of YOU, even if there’s other things going on. I suppose she’s right, in a way. Sometimes, “taking care of you” is easiers said than done, though. I told her I would work on it, but that I try to take things one day at a time at this point. That just brings me back to me wondering if trying to reclaim some parts of myself that I’ve misplaced over the last few years would be what she’s talking about or not?

She slowly made her way around the house, and out the back door. She gazed around the yard for a few minutes, and than headed over to the shed that sat at the back corner of the yard. Inside the shed were pieces of her Mother’s unfinished furniture that she liked to make, and all of her tools that were carefully put in their place. There was quite an assortment of tools, including her Mother’s collection of Ingersoll Rand air tools. Her Mother had said “It never does to need a tool that you don’t have.” And so the tool collection was extensive.

She stood there, wondering what she would do with all this stuff…”Oh well” she thought “Time for deciding that later”

Too much going on here to list. I think the whole neighborhood has Spring Fever, and we are NO exception!

All of the animals are doing fine. Even my mare is coming through the Winter with flying colors, thanks to being able to pamper her a bit! I find myself wanting to saddle her up and go for a ride more and more with each passing day, though! It’s been a long time since I’ve spent much time in the saddle. I’ve been wondering if maybe that’s what I need to do, though. Horses, and a couple of other things, used to be as much a part of my life as anything else that I did all the time. Over the last few years, I haven’t had much opportunity to hang on to that part of myself. Maybe it’s about time to see if I’d like that part of me back again?

She wandered around the house, looking, and remembering what her life had been like in this house. Her Mother had been a pack rat of sorts, although a most organized one. Her Mother had loved scrapbooking, and such things. The walls were covered with plaques and awards, and pictures. She had once complained to her Mother that you couldn’t see any walls, for all the stuff that her Mother had put on them, but now she found them comforting to look at!!

She saw school pictures, her track and field award, and even there on the wall was one of her first communion invitations. She laughed to herself…Her Mother had kept anything and everything!!