Struggling To Find Ourselves

Yep, that’s basically what we’re doing today…waiting for a phone call (or two).  One of those phone calls is HOPEFULLY going to tell us whether we are moving THIS week….or in 11 days!!!  How come every time I make plans, somebody HAS to come along and try to screw them up?…*tired sighs*

I started listening to a set of CD’s that Kenneth Copeland Ministries sent me a week or so ago yesterday.  The title of it “God Can Turn It Around”.  The first CD was VERY good!!!!  I didn’t get the second one listened too, but maybe today…*hopeful look*

I read from I Timothy 1 to Philemon 1 yesterday while I was waiting for the 48 hour countdown to run out.  So now, I am ready to start Hebrews.  Do you think it’s a coincidence that I’m starting Hebrews, the book of faith, AND listening to CD’s of Gloria Copeland teaching on faith and turning things around right now when we NEED faith that this whole mess will turn out with justice and truth prevailing so much right now?

I’m debating adding a couple of more categories for in here.  I’m thinking about starting categories FULL of just scriptures on various subjects.  Maybe some of YOU would be able to use the same scriptures that I am trying to hold on too and believe?  THAT would be my hope in putting the scripture categories in.  Let me know what you think.

Well, time to do….something.  Not sure what yet, though.  NOT really too enthused about the day yet.  HOPEFULLY, it will get better!!!

Just how far things can go in the respect of other people telling me how to raise my child?  Can they tell me what I can and cannot give him to eat and drink?  Can they tell me where I can and cannot take him?  Can they tell me when to move him to the next milestone of life, even if he’s not ready?  Oh, I know that if I was giving him soda and potato chips all the time, that COULD be an issue, but what if I’m not?  Where do they start infringing on my freedom to raise my “buddy” as I see fit?

LOTS of questions, and not very many answers right now.

Thanks for the notes!!!  And the support!!!…*hugs

I think I have a PERMANENT headache these days.  I am assuming most of it is stress, but I’m NOT sure what to do about it at this point.

Went over to see a friend for a couple of hours this afternoon.  We talked about webpages and blogs and such, as well as some about what is going on.  How come what goes on in my life never seems to make much sense or go by “the book”?

13 days left on ONE countdown!!!

And

19 hours and 50 minutes on the other!!…*tired sighs*

I read Phillipians 1 through 2nd Thessalonians 3 yesterday, but haven’t read any today.  Maybe again tomorrow?

The Bible says that “faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God”.  Does that mean what I think it does?  That the more Word of God I hear, the more faith I will have?  Why don’t I feel like I have more faith?  I wish I had some type of divine revelation or something that would make this whole mess just disappear with victory in OUR favor!!!

Well, time to get out of here, I guess, as I have a headache.  Time to go lay down and pray the next 19 hours and 45 minutes FLY by!!!

Thanks for the notes!!!

…My mood…..

Have you ever wondered if anyone could actually USE something against you that you put in these?  I mean, I think we ALL rant and rave and cry a little bit on these on-line diaries or blogs or whatever you want to call them.  And I KNOW they could PROBABLY DEFINITELY use it against you if you were making threats, or whatever on here.  But what ELSE can they use?  THAT is the question of the day at the moment.  I’m torn between ranting and raving about the issues going on in our lives right now….but then again, I have been told that certain things in one of my OTHER on-line diaries (that was public at the time) ARE being used against me.  I wish there was some line there that said “Don’t cross me or they’ll use it against you”….or “they can’t use it, so rant and rave away”….*tired sighs*

Oh well….*shrugs*….Maybe tomorrow will be better.  A countdown started tonight.  A 48-hour countdown.  And we have 42-and a half hours left….*tired sighs*

Another countdown is going on for us right now….A 30 day countdown.  And we have 14 days left, as of today on THAT one!!!  Of course, plans MAY or may not have been screwed up for THAT countdown, because we were planning on making THAT one happen in between “48-hour countdowns”…but I’m not sure yet.  They SURE are trying to mess up our carefully laid plans, though.

I can only wonder, some days, when this whole mess will end?  Or WILL it end?

Have a good weekend, ya’ll.  And I’ll TRY to have a decent one, as we count down the hours and the days.

Not much happening here today, except for the wind blowing and the temperature being rather warm.  If the wind wasn’t blowing QUITE so hard, it would be a WONDERFUL Spring day!!!

Other than that, the phone has been ringing off the hook (or so it seems) since last night.

One of those phone calls last night was from a friend here in town, asking if I would be around and able to transport her youngest son to a “Boy Scout” thing.  He was doing a Flag Etiquette thing, I guess.  I told her we could.

My Sister and her girls went to Emporia today.  We were there yesterday, rain and all.  So we haven’t heard from them since before lunch.

My “buddy” and I have a cake in the oven.  We are going to TRY our hand at cake decorating and see how it comes out.  The library has cake pans that we can check out.  And my “buddy” has a birthday coming up on the 15th of April.  The cake shop here where we live has closed….again.  So I am left with making the cake myself, or finding someone else to do it.  So, today, we explore uncharted territory and see if we can make a decorated cake look decent.  We’ll let you know how it turns out.  It’s SUPPOSED to look like a flag!!!

Other that that, I read the book of Ephesians this morning.  That’s where I’m at in reading through the Bible at this point.  Granted, my Bible reading has been FAR from regular lately, but here’s hoping it gets better!!!

Like I said, not much going on here today.

Thanks for the notes!!!

I got the monthly magazine from Kenneth Copeland Ministeries yesterday in the mail.  In it, there was an article about forgetting the past and such.  But in that article was something that I think is meant for us, even more than forgetting our past.

About three-quarters of the way through the article, Kenneth Copeland is talking about turning the tables on the Devil.  He says that when the Devil starts tempting you to think about whatever you did in the past (or, as in our case, the fears and anxieties about our situation right now), Kenneth says to shut the Devil up with what God says about the situation.  “Go after him with a vengence.  Get revenge on that disobedient thought by assaulting it with the Word.”  He goes on to say that you can’t do it silently…that you HAVE to fight thoughts with words.  “Words always overcome thoughts because the moment you open your mouth, your mind must stop thinking and listen to what your mouth has to say.  That’s the way human beings are created, and there’s nothing the Devil can do about it.  ….If you’ll speak the Word, you’ll defeat him every time.”

As much as I’d like to say I HAVEN’T been having to deal with negative thoughts…and fears….and anxieties….and despair in all of our mess right now, I can’t.  I, honestly, HAVE been having problems with those, and more.  But, I have also found a few scriptures that I know by heart now, and I TRY my BEST to cling to them when things start getting me down.

“GREATER is He that is in me than he that is in the world, and GREATER is He that is in me than he that is against us.”

“NO weapon formed against us will prosper, and EVERY lying tongue that rises against us we DO condemn, for this is our heritage as a servant of the Lord.”

“We HAVE been redeemed from the curse, and ALL of this mess IS under the curse.”

Kenneth Copeland also teaches that WORDS can and DO change what is going on around you….sooooo, here’s hoping and praying that they are right and things DO start changing!!!

Well, here we are again.  Thank you to the couple of you that have left notes!!!

On the homefront, nothing major is happening yet today.  It looks like it IS going to rain…but then, they’ve been saying we are supposed to have rain ALL this week for SEVERAL days now.  We can use it, though.  At least the temperature isn’t bad!!!

Might go to Emporia later for cat food and horse food and a few things at Wal-Mart, but I’m not sure yet.  DO know we need to get down to check the mail here shortly, but other than that, I’m not sure what we are doing…besides laundry.

Like I said, nothing TOO exciting happening here today.

….Trying to have our own webpage.  Will we get lost in cyberspace?  Or will we make this a success?…Hmmmmm…the possibilities.  I guess only time will tell.